Depression and awakening

I forgot I wrote all this, but I like this Eugene guy and hope things work for him. . I like Penny too.. She has a pleasing voice .. lol. American pap. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fG5ftdarg4

Man I hear ya.. I'm getting up there a bit.. and I have succeeded more than most. .but not alot.. not like someone who worked for the big entities, corporations and government.. succeeded in the free market.. while my peers, are all talk.. I am a cabinet tech.. the company I work for does decent sizerd developments.. they are harsh on employees.. In my line of work there are not many people who succeed at the highest level.. and my bosses cannot do what I do at the same level.. well, I paid my house off in 2003 when I was 39.. NONE of the people I am around , or work with ,, have accomplished anything close to that.. and so today , I do not have rent or a mortgage.. and was hired on as one of the higher paid.. 3 an hour over the std hire..
My bigger boss who actually hired me, and he did good. .I am etter than ALL of the other guys.. they know it.. well, the guy who hired me has a 600,000 mortgage with about 25 years left on it.. He likes to talk about how much he could sell it for. . over a million. .and we have experienced a sudden slowdown.. an unexpected slowdown for 2025.. huh, well, this pessimistic old man would say , uh yaa duuhh.. that shit happens.. and so I am buying chinese yuan as an investment .and am very vocal about exactly what I am doing.. while my boss has a 600,000 note over his head I am saving money.. with the potential of doubling it.. He would not even say hi at the last safety meeting. .so I wonder , will he try to CUT MY PAY? well, they can hardly do that. .imo.. I would take a vacation and then the ratsnest would unfold.. BUT PEOPLE WILL RESENT YOU IF YOU MANAGE YOUR LIFE WELL.. as most people are fighting an uphill battle.. and the younger fellas where I work , I mean right there in the same development , they see this young woman who has had a hard life and is looking for something better.. She wants to move in with me.. lol. .and so they all are acting quiet now. .ya, but like she works hard and noona has anything to offer her.. but they all look at her.. the figure of youth and health.. they want her, but what would she get out of it.. not to mention , even though I am getting up there I am tall decent looking white dude.. I am on the cusp of bringing that girl home.. and they all know it I think. .or they all know I could.. and they want to feel like they are my equal or better and the fact is that they are NOT.. and when it becomes obvious like my 45yo co-worker who I helped as a kid , to learn a hobby when he was 14.. I am 15 years older than him.. he lost his gf.. said he was starting a business.. did not have a shop to work from. .He has nothing. .anything he wants he will rent.. I told him the facts before he was burdened by them.. I told him the market before he found out that he cannot do what he was saying he would do.. So everything is fine with me.. I am not worried. .I am the best worker there. .financially secure and ging after the finest woman around. .even my higher boss , from canada , has a nice American prize wife. .realtor. .they are going to be worried if things slow down too much.. But I will not take a cut in pay so they can make their monthy. .even if I have a margin of just pure savings. .or lottery play , whatever. it is my money to do with what want.. I will not take a cut in pay. .lol.. and so they will have to watch me go merrily along while they feel the pressure. They jkust informed us no more OVER TIME.. well, a co-worker says that is how he has been making his car payment .. lol. . Stupid people who have mocked me.. called me racist about the border thing.. MAYBE this upcoming slowdown will not be so bad.. I am far above damage from anything with that.. while my boss could get behind .. because he is stretched thin,, with his new vehicles. and expensive house.. and wife.. The young woman I like is like cinderella.. She won't be getting no big diamond ringsfrom me. .lol.. heheheh. .I do like her alot.. she is the one who made me decide to take a look at going back to the uh , to get back on the horse.. She is worth t imo.. and none other has interested me.. but so at the safety meeting we were informed that 2025 is not shaping up like they had anticipated and there will be cuts etc. .no more over time.. If I see Charlie working OT I am going o do it too.. I don't care about his car payment vs my savings.. my money matters to me like hisa does to him. .and I am the more valuable asset.. oh ,so the ego. .when things are good.. now they are worried..
I will be alright. .They could let me go. .lol.. but I can always get something that keeps me gaining.. My property taxes about 200 a month.. well, the gy with the 600,000 mortgage he has to pay more taxes than I do. .on his supposed million dollar house.. what does he need all that for .. and his Yukon Denali.. while my car cost 2300.. and he knows that fine 38yo girl likes me.. They all know now. .so I am 22 years older than her.. One of the perks of being honest and sound.. I found an cinderella. who works very hard for very little.. and she can quit working and come with me to a better life.. .. That may happen.. SHE WANTS SOMETHING.. when l look at her underappreciated.. and lesser people taking advantage of her.. Her fatherdied when she was young and she lived with her moter andgrandmother until the grandmother died. .and her mom moved back up north .. She says she doesn't like the cold.. I have seen her work and work and work.. walk down the road in the rain with tools.. She will do more for less than any of these blowhards who resent me.. and how do they think I succeeded.. dogged determination doing what I had to do. without concern about what other people thought.. and she is the one who I want./. so she's young and attractive.. works as a laborer.. puts the older realtor women to shame.. in my opinion. She will be the one who I take home.. you know, ,and I don't want to buy her.. but she could stop working today. and have a much nicer place to stay.. I don't care what myb oss thinks.. This girl is a laborer at the company my bosses wife is a realtor. . and I am like , you can have your wife dude. .I don't want HER .. lol.. I want the poor younger girl.. I sure as hell do.. She is living in a storage unit while these people golf.. . I have been there before.. I worked for everything I got..
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This is a brilliant video.

Huge Thanks for This.