Living with anxiety and depression

thanks for sharing, it means more than you can ever know.

Nicely said Ken. Peace man.

I've never been diagnosed as BP, but I am on the Manic Depressive borderline. i did say I've never taken drugs? by that I mean street Drug type stuff. The Doctor gave me some tablet's years ago that have completely changed my life. the moment I felt a panic attack come on as the fear or anger arose, out of the blue I suddenly thought "Fuck it" it ain't no big deal, it will sort it out. i put that down to the drug. This drug I won't say what it is, but it has worked wonder's and I don't walk around like a Zombie and I believe it actually opened my mind to questioning this world and everything?

About the only thing it hasn't cured is my suicidal feelings or thoughts, but what the hell I gave a lust for life that brings me back from the edge every time and I think it is this drug. i tried to go it alone once and stopped and my Mental Health fell back to square one. I'm not ashamed on my self for taking a tablet every morning with my coffee, I tale Vitamin tablets with it every morning as well, it's just a normal function now to make me function normally!

Regarding the suicidal thoughts? I've taken the view I wont do it because I want to see how this world play's out. I've lost every trace of FEAR or failure. My "I don't give a shit@ attitude to the human race has made life so fucking cool for me. After all all my problems really stemmed from a chemical in my Brain that wasn't being created and a tablet daily creates that chemical, and this place this shit hole of a world is perfectly clear to my mind now.

Us MEN are Proud creatures, we build worlds and civilizations. sometimes that PRIDE can be our own enemy. so swallow that pride and a tablet if needed and rebuild because you are going to need every ounce of strength you can get. Remove ALL the problems or hassles from you life by systematically wiping each one out in your own way. Peace

Here's a few words to think about "Dwelling on a bad past is Depression, worrying about an unknown future is Anxiety, but living in the moment is true Peace of Mind. stay strong fella's.

Boy what a subject? I've been there. Panic attacks outburst's of Anger for apparently no reason?Suicidal thoughts. i was never physically violent though? other than to myself occasionally for my lack of worth and shit? Never needed Drug's or drink. Now many years on about 36 years in fact, Life is very different for me.

I discovered that only YOU can sort this out (this is MY vie only guy's and what I did about it). it got so bad that I really wanted to end it all, BUT one morning I woke up with no wife no child and no job. Without thinking I grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and started to write.

What I wrote down was everything I could think of that I thought could be causing these feelings and depression in me, i then set about getting rid of each of the problems. It was very hard at first but over the years it has helped greatly?

Basically i have removed all the TRIGGER's if that's the right word? i gave up a lot of the things in my life that were BROKEN. The Ex left and divorced me (wait for this)! Because I was impossible to argue with! lol! needless to say way back then the court went in my favor, it was just before Family Court arrived to change everything. Anyways I didn't have to pay her a penny. One problem gone.

For a while I did get a job and put my time into that which kinda helped until they started taking the piss and expecting me to work longer for no more pay? Fortunately if thats the correct word I had an industrial accident due to the pressures and ended up medically retired. that was one of the best fucking things that has ever happened to me. this is when I became MGTOW even though it didn't exist as MGTOW, I went very what we call now Red Pill. Life has been getting better all the time.

I think the secret is not to give ANY fucks other than for yourself. OI learned that the world doesn't give a fuck about YOU so why give a fuck about it? That attitude has boosted my life beyond anything I may have suffered if I had not stopped caring for the world and care only for me. That's not to say you have to be SELFISH, just mindful of your needs before other's.

The old saying say's "You are no good to anyone if you are no good to yourself". The only difference to that i have made is not being or doing any good for other's as I've found especially with the fefail YOU will get used? I'm much harder than I used to be in Nature, but not violent hard. I prefer to call it Mentally Strong and mindful! My finsal word is if you want something in life YOU have to get it for yourself, no other fucker will help you? Peace.